Mini Life Update: Where Have I Been?

 




Hi everyone!


Long time no see. This post is just going to be a little life update- I haven’t been posting much at all over the past couple of months and I’ll be talking about where I’ve been and how my life’s going. So, get yourself comfortable, and enjoy!


You may have noticed that I’ve been MIA over the past couple of months (although you probably haven’t haha). I’ve posted a grand total of one blog post so far and that was the What Is In My Handbag, so if you haven’t seen that, go check it out. In fact, it’s been so long since I’ve written one of these posts that I had to go look at my August reflection to see where I left off!


I started Year 11 in September and, so far, it’s going pretty well. We’re staying online for the foreseeable future: they said they were going to ‘reevaluate’ in November but I don’t think we’ll be physically going back to school until at least January. I could be wrong though. I was quite upset about it to begin with because I miss school but now I can’t imagine going back. There are times where I hate being stuck in my room all day without much social contact during lessons, but there are also times where I shudder to think of waking up early, making myself look presentable and lugging a heavy bag up flights of stairs in the heat. I’ve gotten myself into a bit of a routine and I’ll be sharing it with you in my next blog post so stay tuned for that. 


I don’t get a lot of homework but I’m trying to keep revising content as we go along so that I’m not cramming for my exams. Under normal circumstances, we’d be having mid-year exams (or  mocks) in December and our GCSEs would start from around April. I have a feeling that my school will find a way to have my year group sit our mocks, even if we’re not back in school in December, because we’re an exam year (meaning that we’re sitting external exams at the end of the year). What’s stressing me out is the fact that I don’t know if I’m even going to be doing my GCSEs. I don’t live in the UK, but I’m following the British curriculum, so I’m taking international GCSEs. This means that, even though the UK have decided to push their exams back by three weeks, it doesn’t mean that ours are also delayed. Sometimes it’s quite unmotivating because, if I’m not doing any exams, what’s the point in me studying for them now? It’s very tricky to navigate.  


Something that’s really been bothering me is the amount of time on screens I’m spending. I spend eight hours a day on my laptop for school plus an extra three hours for the work I do after school. I know it’s bad, but I also spend a lot of time on my phone messaging my friends, so my screen time is through the roof right now. It means that I burn out really quickly and that I don’t have the time or energy to do things for my health- such as working out. I haven’t exercised much at all these past couple of months, but I want to get back into it. I’m planning on doing the Chloe Ting four week shred, so I’ll let you know how that goes. 


When I’m writing this, I’m on my half-term holiday. The week before the holiday, I was absolutely exhausted. I planned to do lots of revision during this holiday, but I can’t bring myself to do any. I’m torn between getting my stuff together and taking this opportunity to rest and recharge. So far, I’m definitely doing the latter! However, I always feel really guilty when I’m not 100% productive. This mix means that I’m not really doing anything school-related, and I’m simultaneously feeling horrible about it. It’s not a nice feeling. But I’d rather rest than burn out, and I’m convincing myself that after the holiday I’m going to work 10x harder because I’ll be rested. 


Another thing I’ve been struggling with is stress. It sounds so trivial, but I’m more stressed out about my exams than I am about the pandemic we’re in. It’s probably because my exams directly impact me, but I can’t really do anything about the pandemic, or anything else for that matter.  


On another note, I’m decorating my bedroom walls! I’ve picked out a bunch of posters that I want to stick on my walls, and I’m hoping it works out. I’ve also put fairy lights up. Hopefully everything should be done by the end of this month, so I’ll show you in my next reflection.


So, that is how my last couple of months have been. I definitely think I’ll be able to start posting more regularly from now on: I just needed a bit of a break to settle down. That was actually very therapeutic- I feel like I’ve just caught up with a friend. Let me know in the comments how you’re doing: let’s chat!


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Stay safe,

Alisha xx 



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